They say our babies come to awaken us.
As we prep for the arrival of another I can’t help but feel overwhelmed with emotion on just how much you have gone to work on us. And when I say us I definitely include myself.
I am no where near the person I was 23 months ago sweet V.
We love you xoxoxo 📸 @this.is.life.photography #babyspam
D I N N E R
🐟 @ellaskitchenuk Cod Fishies
🍠 Homemade Sweet Potato Fries + Black Pepper
We all had different meals this evening as no one could agree on the same thing 🙈 and Joe had 2 @ellaskitchenuk Cod Fishies left in the freezer so I thought I would use them up.
He ate everything!
Hope you all have a lovely evening 💜
2 138 minutes ago
Deep clean done, Ayla’s in bed and Ihsan’s on nights so the trees going up 🎄😍
A N X I E T Y & motherhood.
I am part of the whopping 20% of the population that “suffers” from this, beast. That means, the 2 out of 10 of you that liked this post, I completely and utterly understand. A lot of days it’s crippling. Some days I can’t even go outside to do what I need to do. The reason I am sharing this is because if you look at my arm, there is a rash. That is caused from anxiety. I have had anxiety for as long as I could remember. School was extremely hard, anything social was extremely hard. Going into any busy building is hard. Talking to the cashier is hard. And don’t even get me started about movie theaters or elevators 🤦🏼♀️ So I tried to self medicate. Luckily, personal development and mindfulness is literally the best thing that’s ever happened to me (and my family of course!). Personally, not one doctor or medication has helped me more than meditation, diet and exercise.
I think the most frightening thing to me is Emory learning this behavior and/or way of living, or most of all... passing down my trauma to her because I didn’t work on myself. I work on myself every single day. Little by little. Whether that be pushing myself to go out, exercise, meditate, eat right (really struggling with that right now, but I know it’s a huge impact) or educating myself on ways to be/get better. I have so much to work on. It’s truly a step by step process, and one that I know is going to take my whole life. But I refuse to let my daughter take on any of that load. So far, she has taught me so much. I just wanted to let you know that if you are struggling with these things, it’s time to take some time for you. I implore you to go take that walk that you’ve been meaning to do. Eat that apple that’s been sitting there waiting for you. And take 6 deep breathes to quiet your mind. Feel what you NEED to feel. Not all at once. It only takes today, right now to start a better habit for you and your wellbeing. And my inbox is always open for YOU if you ever have any questions or need support ❤️ #imnotmyanxiety